Phew! I couldn't figure out what was stifling me, closing me off from being able to write. And then it came to me.
About a week ago, I had the oh-so-brilliant idea to upload my blog posts into Facebook. Bad idea. Very, very bad idea.
I'm not a complete idiot. I know anyone can find my blog if they want. I know anyone can read what I write here. But it's still a choice for people to do so. Allowing it to come up like that...I don't know. It was changing everything for me.
Like any self-respecting blogger, I want people to read my blog. At the same time, I want people to want to read it. I don't want them to just read it because it happens to be right in front of them.
I don't know. I don't know if any of this is making sense, but it makes sense to me anyway.
It's not that I'm scared to be me. I don't think. I just didn't like feeling as vulnerable as that one little action was making me feel.
So now I'm back to feeling like this space is mine again.
We had a nice 3-day. We spent most of it at home, listening to music, watching Lost, cleaning (oh yeah, that...) and generally relaxing.
Yesterday, we were out and about. My parents and I took the girls to see Mamma Mia again; this time, the sing-along version. Riley loved it. Sylvia, on the other hand, was embarrassed because we were singing at a sing-along. Yeah, whatever, you tween!
Afterward, we headed to Bubba Gump Shrimp in Santa Monica. My parents had shown them Forrest Gump when they were on vacation, so the girls were anxious to try it. Sylvia kicked some serious butt on the waitress' trivia quiz. Not only has she inherited my love of useless entertainment trivia, I think she's actually taken my memory since I have none anymore.
They've also started a new saying. You know how people say, "seriously" or "actually?" Well, they've started using "literally." I'm trying to teach them the proper meaning, but of course, Miss Sylvia is having none of that. I'm just exasperating her.
So we'll see how this week goes.
I've got another school incident in the works, but I'll wait to blog about that until after tomorrow night at our 6th grade parents meeting.
To all of you just starting your school year...well, I wish you all the best!