Sunday, January 4, 2009

Weekend Wrap-Up

I think I'm finally starting to feel like writing again.

This past week was, for the most part, peaceful. There was enough to do at work so it wasn't completely boring, and our boss thinks we'll get busier this month, which is practically reason to celebrate! I haven't been too concerned about my job, but of course, given the economy, I've certainly paused and wondered. I am, without a job, totally screwed. The raise in rent means that I've basically put no money away in months, and savings was a thing of the past about a year ago. So, while I've been trying to find ways to cut down my expenditures (and haven't been too successful -after all, the girls still need food, and Sylvia can't seem to stop growing!), the necessity of a job - well, it can't be stressed enough. And I know that nothing is certain, but it's better in the long run for me to just stop worrying already, and just hold on to the hope that he's given us that our jobs aren't going anywhere. For now, at least.

I've been off since New Year's Eve, and the girls and I have been both productive and lazy. New Year's Eve itself was uneventful. The girls fell asleep around 10, and I watched my West Wing reruns that I'm currently hooked on, and went to bed soon after the ball dropped. We did a big cleaning of their room on Friday. And we've played a lot of "Whoonu," this game we were given as a present. It is pretty fun. You try and guess the other family members' most favorite things on the cards dealt (things like sailboats and mayonnaise). Sylvia and I got a great laugh out of the cards we discarded for Riley as four of my favorite things: coffee, Starbucks, talking politics, and online shopping! (No, I'm not a shopaholic but I did most of my Xmas shopping online since I hate malls.) And we are learning things about each other. Like I wasn't sure whether or not to pick musicals for Riley. I know I love musicals, and that Sylvia loves musicals, but did she actually love them as well? She gave an unqualified yes!

Yesterday, we went to a family member's graduation party. SUCH good food! Tacos, rice, bean dips galore, and they'd rented this really awesome Margarita machine that looks like a slurpee machine from 7-11. The girls had a great time playing with their cousins.

But I confess, there's been a layer of melancholy that's been with me for most of the week. Some of it is caused by some of the events that have occurred lately. The Santa massacre that left 12 orphans who will have the memories of this Christmas Eve to contend with the rest of their lives. The tragedy of John Travolta's son's death - I'm not a big fan of his, but I can't help but feel sympathy, especially for the sister who has lost her brother. The Israeli/Hamas "conflict." And relatives of bloggers who are suffering. And friends of friends of friends. All of this forced merriment that doesn't stop the pain and suffering; indeed, seems to compound it.

And then there's my own crap. I look around and see all the things that I still need to do. Just everyday life stuff that never ends seems overwhelming right now, and all I want to do is sit on my couch and knit and watch West Wing reruns. Next week, it's back to fighting with Riley about homework, picking up Sylvia from cheerleading, and no time for fun until the weekends.

But then I watched "Waitress" last night. At one point, the lead character asks another, "are you happy?" And his basic answer is, "happy enough." And a light bulb went off in my head. I have a job I enjoy, co-workers I love to see every day, two girls who are for the most part happy and healthy, friends that mean the world to me, a roof over my head, and reasons to smile and laugh every day. Yeah, that's enough. I'm happy enough.

13 comments:

Julie said...

Glad that you were able to enjoy family and time off. I loved your waitess answer...about being happy enough...so true.

Tara R. said...

I'm looking forward to getting back to work and school too. I loved taking off so much time with my family, but I'm ready to join the world again.

I hope you and your girls have a fabulous 2009.

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Mama Smurf said...

I cannot WAIT to boot the kids off to school tomorrow!

Your last paragraph made me smile!

FreedomFirst said...

Oh, I miss knitting. I think I will get back to it soon, though. The boys are getting older. I need to take a sweater class so I can make something besides ponchos, scarves, and blankets.

Happy New Year!

Laura said...

"Happy enough." I loved Waitress, maybe because it's not the typical romantic comedy or comedy where everyone ends up singing songs about how great love and life is. "Happy enough." That's good, but it's a way station. But a good place to rest and gather strength.

Musicals, I love them! I watched West Side Story for the billionth time last night.

osolomama said...

You've caught my mood exactly. And you're the second person I know who settled into those West Wing re-runs. Good enough, happy enough--it's the perfect way to put it today. Thanks, April.
Jess

CableGirl said...

Happy enough, indeed. Sometimes I know I really need to remind myself about the good things around me. Somehow the good tends to feel over shadowed by the crap. It's good to remember that for the most part, it's not.

Huckdoll said...

I adored your thoughts on "Happy enough". Totally.

The margarita Slurpee machine sounds AWESOME.

~Shiona~ said...

That last paragraph said it all. Still all of the previous events you nmentioned are sad. I listened to old songs on the 31st. Glad to hear you guys had a great time. That party sounds awesome. Why is my word dessetr. Couldn't they just have put dessert b/c I love dessert :)

Julie said...

That game sounds great! Isn't it crazy how much we don't know about the people we're closest to?

May you be richly blessed in this new year!

Suzie said...

Me too Im happy enough but i think Id be happier with my own slurpie machine

Kori said...

Happy Enough...yes, that pretty much says it, doesn't it? And I love you.