I know that I'm feeling much better because I like coffee again - phew! I faked it for two days because I was so over being sick, but on Friday, I finally desired coffee like I normally do. And the world stopped being upside down.
There are some developments on the X front, but I'm not yet ready to talk about that. Thankfully, Kori and Nancy were there for me yesterday when I really needed to cry and rant and rave, and also thankfully, my girls were spending the day with their grandparents. I'm setting up another therapy appointment to help me through this.
It's not that I don't know my options, and the various pitfalls associated with any decision I make, but Kori and I agreed that I should take advantage of the opportunity I have to mull this over with a professional who knows me, knows my kids, and will help me come up with solutions to the pitfalls. I'll be able to make the decision with more confidence than if I flew completely solo on this, which will probably be half the battle.
We single moms are constantly just having to deal with the problems, and we - well, I guess I can't speak for all single moms - I often second-guess myself and wonder if I should've gone the other way on a decision. It's what separates truly single parents from those that can co-parent with their ex, or those that have a husband somewhere in the world. And it's why I need people like Kori in my life. She gets it, she gets me, and I cherish her friendship in a way that I was never able to cherish my marriage.
On lighter notes, the girls ran a race yesterday at the Santa Anita Race Track and had a great time. We also enjoyed Disney on Ice on Wed. evening, and today we've enjoyed a quiet day at home.