In September, this blog will be 5 years old. Since I appear to be out of new ideas, it seems like a good time for a retrospective of the last 5 years. (Incidentally, this is my 792nd post. So I don't feel too bad that the inspiration is waning!)
In my first post (which is so bad, I can't even bring myself to link to it), I mentioned why it's all about balance. That seems worthy of a first retrospective post.
For most of my life, I was not good at balance. I was often accused of being too tunnel-visioned, too emotional, just generally too much.
I certainly did learn that too much anything was usually a bad thing.
It's great to have passion, ambition, to give of yourself, but after much trial and error, I aim for balance. (Which is not to say I succeed, of course, but at least the blinders are off now.)
From the time I was 6, I devoted my life to theatre. I was always in rehearsal or performing (or both). My dream was everything. Until it wasn't.
It wasn't that I stopped wanting it, but wanting it and getting what you want aren't always the same thing. And certainly not in show biz.
There's a great song called "A Way Back to Then" from Title of Show that describes this:
But the mundane sets inThen came marriage(s), and those babies in their carriage(s). Then came divorce.
We play by the rules
And plow through the days
The years take us miles away
From the time we wondered when
We'd find a way back to then
When you're a single parent, you simply cannot be tunnel-visioned anymore. I had to strive for balance.
I couldn't stop being me completely, of course. My girls have grown up listening to musical theatre from the womb. I have shared with them my passions. I show them by example by being involved in my community, by spending time with friends and family, by juggling our wants and needs, that there is a way to have it all by having it in smaller increments.
While seeing the value of balance may seem elementary to most, it wasn't for me.
Balance is something I wish I'd learned to want at a much younger age, and I hope the girls have taken in these lessons.