Riley was reading my blog from the beginning last week, and it reminded me of how I've let this blog slip. There are a couple of reasons for that.
The main reason is time. We're up at 5, out the door before 7, gone until 7 on the slow days. I have school twice a week, Riley has her cadet program one night a week, and every so often, there are Board meetings or just getting together with friends. Our weekends aren't much slower. Riley and I are up at 4 on Saturdays for her cadet program, then I'm busy with household chores and getting Sylvia to and from her assistant teaching. And I've been spending Sundays with the guy I've been seeing.
Yep, I'm seeing someone. It's totally unexpected, and mostly wonderful, and I'm still trying to wrap my brain around the whole thing. The girls know and have spent time with him, and they're happy for me. But it's just all very weird.
I've spent so much time here extolling the virtues of the single life, and I still believe in those ideals - if you're not with the right person. And I think I just might be with the right person. It's been (as he said recently) a whirlwind. Right now, I'm trying to balance the joy with making sure I don't get ahead of myself. I feel like a stupid googly-eyed school girl and part of me loves it and part of me is trying to keep my feet firmly planted.
This blog has mostly been about being a struggling single mom with a deadbeat and limited future. I don't talk about parenting much anymore, and I'm still single but in a relationship and even my ex has been more responsible lately! Everything is upside down. Or right side up? (Could be? Who knows?)
I guess I have new things to balance now. And I hope to show up here every so often to try and get perspective.
2 comments:
I'm proud of you for being open to changes and certainly understand the whirlwind of a new relationship! The dizzy-ing aspect fades as you get to know each other and the newness settle. But in the best circumstance you will continue to appreciate just how good the fit can be! Do keep us posted.
And yes, it is totally weir and completely feels like being 17 all over again. Enjoy!
Congrats April! I am the one who wrote you awhile back about being a paralegal. While I have been in a relationship for almost 2 years, starting over with a kid or kids is definitely not easy... barely enough time to see each other let alone have a relationship. But us single parents, we really do need companionship with another adult. Hopefully you won't be too busy to post every so often! Life WILL change! (for the better!) =)
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